smile-always

2009-08-13T21:00:00.000-07:00

i guess im going to change my blog to wordpress or livejoural instead. blogspot seem to have problem. aniway, two presentation for wds and com skill is over. once again, i wan to thanks God. somehow i have overcome the fear for presenting. And i thanks God for my classmates cos they are helping mi when i was presenting so i wont be so nervous. im getting to in love with my classmates. haha!! one more thing is i can't wait for my holiday. hahah!! last paper will be next friday and i will be free like a bird. meanwhile, im looking for job. i seriously need a job to help mi. i have been spending money on taxi fare. somemore hp bill n insurance is reducing my money too. THANK YOU GOD FOR EVERYTHING YOU HAVE DONE FOR ME. *LOVES*

2009-07-29T07:34:00.000-07:00

Finally, my CTOS and Marco project are done together with my presentation. thanks you people for praying for me. both projects for presentation went well. im not nervous at all. But i have slight fever on tue due to marco project. cos i spent e whole night doing project together wif min yao at boon keng mac. It was such a relieve right now. at least i can rest for like 1 day and continuous with my WDS project.by the way HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO SHI QI!! Sorry that we will get u a cake cos porject is taking up all our times. we bought basketball for you as a present since you wan to buy it myself then might as well buy for you. haha!! but we know nut about bball so just anyhow get one bball. Aniway, i think my clique is getting abit crazy abt guys. haha!! make me dun knoe shld i laugh or wat. ok!!

2009-07-24T20:06:00.000-07:00

Finally my fever gone. Thanks for praying for me =) this week was horrible when you are having fever. I had 2 days MC and back to sch on wed just marco lecture and in e end nothing goes into my brain. MARCO SUX. SERIOUSLY!! but i really have to put extra extra effort for my marco. i don't wish to take any supp paper for macro. Again PROJECT is CRAZY. next week, i got two presentation which is on mon and tue. PLEASE PLEASE pray for me. you guys know wat to pray for me la. hahaha! aniway
HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY TO GRACE AND DENISE.

2009-07-20T06:56:00.000-07:00

Fever on n off from sat till now. i think im lacked of rest due to project n going out every late too which causes mi to have fever, sore throat,flu and cough. i didnt manage to do any of my project or revision on sat and sun. i slept e whole day on sat. my fever start to increase during midnight which causes me, not able to sleep properly. ended up i can't go for service and cell too. well, denise's 21st b'day was on sunday. i was hesitating weather to go ant and being abit naughty i actually went for awhile. partly to give her face and not forgetting our 12 years friendship till now. i didnt regret going cos i manage to see alot of my old classmates and some of them is super super long never get to see them. haha!! i was intending to go for awhile like cut cake then go off but didnt. =.= i stayed awhile more to chat wif them and after tt going to hong kong cafe near my house area til 1.30am reached home.

my mum wake mi up early in e morning to see a doctor and got nagged by her for coming home late despite having fever. i got 2days mc. But most properly will be going back to sch tml to rush my group project. im feeling veri tired right now. update again.

2009-07-18T08:00:00.000-07:00

wow, like finally finished my Com Skill report together wif my group mates. ytd was e dateline. it's killing me man. Meet up at 9am for project is e right choice somehow even thou totally tired. cos we haven finish editing and all. Abit pissed off by one or two slacker in my group. somehow they did do their work but was not properly done so have to help them wipe their backside. Wasted sometimes shifting here n there n ended in e library doing together with my classmates. Well, there is this moment i just feel like crying but i didnt.

As much as i want to finish my project but i also wan to practice my access test cos the test is ytd too. At e same times, i got irritated by some of my classmates who were there too. cos they keep asking me questions some more really bo liao questions. If i dont reply them, they will give mi this sad face. like wth, as if like i am their nanny. have to entertain them n comfort them. wow, it's crazy. Yes, i did voice out saying that im busy, please dont disturb me and i have no energy to talk cos im totally tired. But it doesn't help at all. I was totally in a bad mood but i just dont wish to vent anger on anyone becos tt's not e way to treat ppl. so i kept quiet wif a black black face till they somehow realise wat happened. -.- But i thanks God for shiming cos she do help me abit even thou she is not my group. so i have abit times to close my eyes and rest for a while.

During e test, i was totally shag. Keep on re-do again n again, really wasted lots of time. haha!! i was suppose to wait for my turn to mark access test but teacher said he will mark mine first instead. haha!! he was really nice to said comfort words to me. I think im just tired but i guess teacher tot i was sad. lol. thanks God,i managed to get 84/100. but i could have done better than tt.

Give a break for myself. A last min decision, went to PS to meet ping, jian guo, ah yang for dinner at Pizza hut. After that, quickly went home to bath and meet qian ru at hongkong cafe near heartland hall till 2am. thanks for e treat ah ru. haha!! too chatty already but no choice we got too much things to catch up.

sorry, i just wan to rant only. It's time to rush another project

2009-07-08T19:02:00.000-07:00

Projects is driving me crazy. serious!! Dateline is drawing nearer n nearer. I dislike web-design so much cos it took very long hours just to do the header. My project-mates doesnt know about the dateline untill i told them. wow, everyone is rushing too. But i thanks God for my group. In e midst of everything, they are e one that can smile n laugh with me. Time managment!!! I needed to plan my time properly. Project Project Project.

Next wk must hand in:
~ com skill group report.
~ Marco individual article summary
~ Marco draft group work report
~ marco hw
~ ctso hw

Pray hard next friday is ctso test. AGAIN test!!!

2009-07-06T17:53:00.000-07:00

Sunday went airport wif shili to study after church service.

haha!! SEE HER... sleeping.

Last sat jasmine's wedding. As long as you are happy i am happy too. Well, whenever i recalled back just feel like crying becos many things happen on e way. Anyway, i had a good time wif the three of them on friday night before her actual wedding. Everything just happened so so fast. It was a tiring day. Four of us slept only two-three hours n had to rush this n that. too lazy to upload many photos.

Michelle 21st B'day

2009-07-01T06:03:00.000-07:00

First of all, HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAR MICHELLE!!! (i know u love pink)

last sat went to her b'day party at tahan merah country club. And i was really very tired that day due to slack of sleep. i slept very late on Friday night to do my project cos i can predict that by the time i reach home on sat night i will be dead due to no energy. Sat morning wake up super early to do my project and i have to brain-storm but my brain seem not functioning at all. Time passes really fast, without realising it was afternoon already. i quickly rush and bath becos im
meeting Eunice at town. Just didnt have much time to shop for Michelle's present so decided to do a last min shopping. But in e end, i still can't find any present so decided to bao ang bao for her. Actually, i know is abit insincere but really can't find smt that suitable for her or maybe i dun knoe wat she wan la. haha!!

I hardly have the time to go shopping and i enjoyed myself so much becos i managed to buy a pair of black heels, belt and a top too. Not forgetting Eunice's presence. These's a event at orchard and i was curios to know so decided to walk around. Thanks to my curiosity, i saw my darling xz helping out in e event too. haha!! i think all of e sudden i was so excited to c her. LOL.

Aniway Michelle's party place was super inside . Thanks God, wei long drives that day if not most probably just take a cab. I can somehow feel how u feel when u give a speech and totally loves it esp when u give thanks to God. I think e funny part is that she embarrass wei long and his face turn red la.
forgotten wat time i reached home but true enough i wash up and sleep already. -.- never even touch my project.

Yesterday, i managed to pass up my WDS proposal on time cos i spent my whole sunday from morning till night to do it. wow, wat a relieved now. I thanks God for my surrounding friends in times of needs .

40days fast start today

PS: i tried many times but stupid blog didnt upload my photos. =(

2009-06-26T01:34:00.000-07:00

Last sunday, i had a good times wif my cell-mates. well, it has been sometimes we spend time together. Yes, we spent whole day together which i really love it and i totally misses the times that we spent.

went cafe cartel for lunch. ms kau, thanks for e treat. *kisses*

billy bomber

Good news to share. Remember previous entry, i've mention that i did badly for my com skill paper. Well, i got back my paper and i passed with grade C instead of D or F . hahaha!! Thanks God. I always tot i will get grade F for my paper becos i got so many mistakes and everything just not flow at all too. even when i got back my paper and look through i oso dun know wat m i writing too. well, i know everything is by God's favours. Thanks for bringing me throu.

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY TO ALVIN HOE!!

feeling very lousy for e past few days. i dun feel like doing anything now.

2009-06-19T22:15:00.000-07:00

next week sch start again. sigh!! i've been going out almost everyday cos i know that once sch start i won't have time to meet up wif my frenz. Plus deadline for project is coming soon. Aniway, not feeling well for e past few days. Thursday, meet up wif ping for lunch and went back to my previous company to see my colleages. Some of them said i've slim down already. haha! so happy la. Actually suppose to stay awhile then go home and rest but ping n i got so so much things to tok about and somemore she's bored too. so i acc her till 5.30pm and meet my frenz then c doctor . I was suppose to meet up wif li hua, qian ru, wan ting and rui ting but ended i didnt go cos i need to c a doctor and i tot that maybe after my everything then go n look for them but doctor said i've slight fever so need to go home and rest. Sorry guys!! i will make it up to all of you. *love love*

Last friday-Phuture

before phuture

darling xz i realised we have meet up for super long time.

2009-06-12T19:52:00.000-07:00

ytd project wasn't as fruitful as what i expected. But we manage to do e outline and questionnaire. my brain dead after the project which ended at 6pm. actually suppose to end at 5pm so that i can go n meet up with jasmine and yvonne but who knows project ended so late. i have to rush down to meet ping, ren wen n shi liang for K-singing at partyworld. Two days k-singing with ping but with different groups la. haha!! walao, where is that queen ar? definitely muz meet up wif her before sch reopen again, if not she will nag n nag at mi for not sparing sometimes wif her. i knoe she misses so much la. haha!! Mr C, thanks for driving mi home when i needed. especially, when i don't feel like taking bus/train or worst carrying lots of things. Your calling always come right at e timing. Really appreciate. haha!! cheers to our friendship.

My com skill project-mates at xue bin's house

yeah!! im going to meet up wif jas, yov, rui ting, wan ting and melissa. ok!! like finally quite a no of us. lol. but li hua n qian ru can't make it =(

2009-06-10T02:14:00.000-07:00

Im having my team break now. I shall roughly blog about my past 3-4 weeks .Ever since school started, i didnt haf much time to blog or rather im lazy la. haha!! Finally, im back to update my blog. God answered my pray. school life was good but i think is kind of stressful. And Friends that i have in poly was not too bad compare to my olden days. Aniway, everyone called mi er jie. hmmm, i wonder is it a good thing or bad?

Communication skill was sux for me. Tt was one of moduel i hated e most. And com skill was the first paper i took in poly. Teacher wan us to write 600 words for essay in class. I feel like banging my head on e wall when i knoe tt my conclusion part totally cannt make it cos i only have 5-10mins to write plus my reference too. I feel like crying when i step out of e classroom cos i can predict that im going to fail. haha!! i think everything wrote on my face and so everyone know wat happened to mi. comfort from them do help mi abit.

Project started to come one by one. Well, i seriously think i should put more effort in my project. even if i did badly for my paper, i still have my project to pull my grade up. Speaking of which, my others paper also cannt make it expect for WDS. hmmm, i was sharing this with a few of my friends. i found out that i am not as hardworking compare to my ite days. Partly, i didnt have any goal/aim and im sure i will not be able to make to local uni tt's was y i didnt put much effort. i needed to think of it so that there will smt to motivate me.

went st james last sat.
HAPPY 22nd BRTHDAY- REN WEI

my polymates
XUE BIN AKA BIN DI
HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY TO U!!!

i give up a job which work during IT show cos i got project on thurs. Hopefully it will be a fruitful time n not wasting time away. oh yes, HAPPY 21TH BIRTHDAY TO WEN SHAN.

i will try to blog as now when i can =)

2009-04-09T20:14:00.000-07:00

My company hold a Farewell party for me. ytd was my last day at interactive data with everyone ard at e office. I'm really touched by them wif gifts and card. Especially ppl like marinanne, jeanine, jibin and not forgetting abt my dear angelina too. I was really touched by their words. Marinanne said "if you need help in school project or anything, you can help n look for us". she even take her name card to pass to me. Another was jibin who is IT support. He said "If you need help in school work or advise technology you can look for me. I'm good in network but not programming." haha!! It's really nice to see people offering helps and asking me back lunch together with them. And also angelina hug me before i went off and i was shocked when she acutally cried. isn't sweet?

mi n ping

mi & Angelina

She is my lunch partner. she is more than a colleague to me. And we shares lots of things together. miss her =)

Levent n mi

haha!! i think he is charming, if you see him everyday.

jibin, levent, mi n adrian

Jibin is a person that is very easy-going. I talk to him alot among all e males colleagues. He will talk with you everything and anything. not forgetting he is helpful too.

Adrian just flew over to Singapore n work. He will try to make convensation every morning talking to him.

jibin, mi, jeanine and eng guan

Eng Guan is someone who is shy toward to gers. But he is a joker when he is with e guys.

thankfully to Jeanine that she had chosen me to work at Interactive Data. She's really sweet person.

marianne n mi

Another nice colleague i met too. I will see a wide smile whenever i saw her. will miss u too =)

Karen n mi (she take good care of me too)

she is like a mother to me. taking care of me. *sweet*

mi, alvin and lyna

Alvin is just a crappy person i would say. haha!!

Even thou lyna is a straight forward person, her intension was good.

mi n Foo chye (trying to disturb, acting as if his hand on my shoulder)

Uncle Long is always disturbing mi but then again he is such a great entertainer

jay, chris, angelina n mi

I WILL MISS EVERYONE OF YOU.

2009-04-06T17:24:00.000-07:00

Too lazy to blog. Last few weeks has been a tiring week for me. I've got no time to rest but thankfully last sunday i can rest like whole day, like finally stay at home resting. i guess once a while spending time eating sleeping and watching tv are really good times for me but my sis say tt im behaving like a pig. aniway, i don't mind la. I think i've lots of photos to post but too lazy la. hahah!!

i had a fabulous times with joanna, alicia and queenie.
k-sing at alicia's house was good. queen n mi were so into singing. haha!! no need to waste money.

darling xz 21st b'day

enrollment service

frog leg porridge

this photo took during pri 4.

im so excited to meet all of them up. esp benson. haha.

sigh!! this week will be my last week working at interactive data. no more money. All my colleagues are asking me about my leaving and stupid uncle long kept on disturb me. xiu ping will be replacing me and i will be seeing her tml in office. I will be giving her training on wed n thur, at least someone can acc mi.

i need to pray very hard for nice friend in ploy. no attitude problem friend.

2009-03-18T17:28:00.000-07:00

Congratulation to 2nd company PIONEER CONTINGENT, clinching Gold and the Challenge Shield(highest award among e gold). Indeed God is good. Well, I was really shocked to heard that and didn't expect them to get challenge shield in e first place. It was God's grace and mercy. God was in control of everything and im really ashamed to have that thinking. YES!! God will make a way, where there seems to be no way.

got this photo from zarra blog.

Last week was G12 conference and Drill competition. Tiring week i would say. haha!! actually i thank God that i signed up for G12 though i was asked to pay $40 which i know is totally not worth it. Becos i've only attended a few hours but then again i did learnt something from there and also another better understanding of G12.

oh, did i mention going to Geylang on sat night for frog leg porridge with shi li zarra and alciea. haha!! it was awesome. I'm so in love with it right now and next thur im going to have it again. i don't mind having a big pot of frog legs all by myself. HOHOH!! it's simply too nice.

Anyway, im going to alicia's house tml for a small gathering with joanna, queenie and xiu ping. im really excited to see them again esp alicia and joanna. it's been such a long long since i last met them. im sure joanna going to be super crappy and crazy again. tt's her trademark thou. lol.

Alright, this sat is SENIOR CONTINGENT drill competition. yes, FAITH!! PRAY pray pray...
darling xin zhi will be having her 21st b'day party this sat too. HOHO!!

grab this from yvonne blog.

I'm thinking of baking this rainbow cake. But provided i have e time to do so.

Lastly, im going to go crazy because of enrollment package and so many paper work to do. I have no nut abt it. And my two dear sisters who study poly have already cleanly forgotten how to do so they can't help. giving excuses like "walao, so long already.. how can u expect us to remember" -.-

oh yes, my grandmother came to my house on monday to stay for awhile partly because she need to do check up at poly-clinic. But doctor have transferred her to hospital because she can't urine and also constipation. will be under-observation for 1 week so hope everything will be fine. I think is quite serious for a 85 years old, old lady. So please pray for my grandmother and also my mother for strenght as she need to take care of my grandmother. I think so sound abit sad & worry over the phone when she told me about my grandmother stuff. well, i will have to contribute some parts too. I will have to plan my time properly. definitely will be going to hospital after work to accompany my mum and grandmother. God, please strenght me.

2009-03-12T00:24:00.000-07:00

Met up with xiu ping and yan li on 10 march. Like finally, i get to meet them again. But where is my dear queenie? lol. went to marina square for Hotpot culture. I love the soup alot. We had a great time chatting and laughing till some ppl actually look at us. -.- Time passes real fast without realising it.

Mr B msg me saying he coming to fetch me. so they are nice to acc me and wait. Nothing to do while waiting ,so we take photos. i didnt know we took more than 100 photos. hahha!! yes, some of e photos are really retarded. haha!!

Reached home at 1am. why so late? cos i have to acc him for dinner. -_- walao, i dont know why he want to go all e way to east coast and eat instead of MS.

trying to take a formal photo like wat sch always teach us.

isn't she adorable?

testing jumping shot

c how retard my face. too slow to jump

i know is idiot pose la

pig face

my eyes is really very heavy now due to lack of sleep. later going for G12 conference. im excited actually but i hope i won't fall asleep. I'm going to give my 100% to hear what pastor is saying and also god talking to me too.

2009-03-05T17:50:00.000-08:00

Finally, my two big bosses went back to their country. One of them in charge of International n another in charge of Asia I didn’t know that they will stay here for 3 days. It was such a relived right now. Having to attend meeting about strategies and structures for 2 hours was a torturing for most of us. I was trying my best to stay awake. I guess not only me but also some of my colleagues too. Haha!! Thank a lot to some of my friends that entertaining me by texting thru my “boring” days. And also Yvonne, thank for the bible application that you sent to me. It was just in time and I managed to finish reading e book of Revelation when I’ve really have nothing to do.

My friends have been reminding me about my posting result which will be on 5 march. It’s seemed like they are more much excited than I do. Haha!! I know they care for me. Before posting result that night, I was praying to God about my result and telling Him that I really don’t know which one to choose (private or ploy?) and having a confusing feeling within me. But at e same time, I was really excited about what is His plan for me cos deep down I always believed His promise that He had for me.

On that day, I nearly forgot that my result will be out at 2pm until Grace text me. Well, I’ve received my posting result and I got enroll into TP. I wasn’t feeling happy or excited about it. I’m having mix feeling within me and also shocked too. I went into e website to double check again and again. I thought my eye was trying to play trick on me. Yes, I went to screen shot this out. I guess some of you must be wonder why m I having a mix feeling within me. And I went home to list out the reasons. Haha!! I know is sound abit weird but at least I will have a clearer picture.

(PRIVATE SCHOOL)
Advantages
~Able to study and work at the same times during office hours.
~Able to earn more money
~Financial Independent
~Not giving any financial burden to my parent plus I can also help them out in settling some bills
~My parent will have extra allowances from me.

Disadvantages
~No more time to play and for myself
~Not able to go for dance classes

(POLY)
Advantages
~Able to go for my dance classes
~Ploy cert is better than private cert

Disadvantages
~Fear in mixing lousy friends
~Not able to do well in studies (IT idiots)
No more money
Going to take 3 years to graduate, by e time im old
~have to step out of my comfort zone

I guess one of the reason was fear. Last night, fear arises within me whenever I start to think that I’m going to study at ploy. Another reason why I hesitate to go private was this. SINGAPORE PRISON SERVICE
http://www.prisons.gov.sg/career_faq.html

32. I possess a diploma from a private college, would I still be shortlisted?

The Singapore Prison Service accepts only diploma graduates from the five local polytechnics, namely Nanyang, Ngee Ann, Republic, Singapore and Temasek Polytechnic, as well as diplomas from Nanyang Academy of Fine Arts (NAFA), National Institute of Education (NIE) and Laselle SIA College of Arts

I went to check out the website and to my dismayed private cannot be use for gov. such a pity. I thought that my pathway will be going to private school and really plan everything before hands so maybe that is also another reason im having mix feeling. I felt that I needed more assurance and someone to convict me. Well, ms kau give me a verse proverbs 16:9 says “in his heart a man plans his course but the Lord determines his steps.”
Another was jasmine yen reminded and “enlighten” thank a lot..

Anyway, i had a great catching up with them and singing song at TOP1 last sat.
it's been smt since i last met them. i think e last time we meet up was at halloween night. lol

me n jas

yvonne, li hua, rui ting, me n jasmine (where is my qian ru aka ah ru mei?)

same old as again
every time do lots of stupid actions together

2009-02-27T09:00:00.000-08:00

My estimation inaccurate again. I reached like 2.30am after celebrating ping b'day at party world. I got headache and feel like sleeping during my working hrs. LOL. I hope that it will be my last time spending so late outside during weekday, when i am suppose to be in bed.

me, ping and christine

me n wen shan

yi zhuang, me n ping

me, jian guo n ping

I had nightmare again last night. It's really scary. I will share with my cell-mates, becos again all of you are inside my dream. It's horrible that i woke up in e middle of night n start praying to God. Thank God, i had a good sleep after that.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IPio36Qs84w

Studio wu open house

I love part 5 and 7.

oh ya, i can't online not even msn next week, due to big boss coming from Melbourne. argh, i think e times passes will be freaking slow. sigh!! I was telling my friend maybe i should go to e toilet and sleep. haha!! I hope he will stay here for one or two days if not my whole week will be super terrible.

2009-02-25T10:51:00.000-08:00

I had a bad dream last night maybe due to not brushing my teeth(my logic). haha!! wait a min, not that im purposely don't want to brush hor. haha, just tt i fell asleep after talking on e phone with someone. ok, back to e dream i was saying.. I dreamt of my ite frenz qian ru n yvonne, my sec classmate boon juan and my cell-mates not one but all of them plus ms kau. Inside e dream, i was at my qian ru's house with yvonne and we were happily chatting with one another and having fun. just when my cell-mates all of them came, which i don't ever know why r they inside my frenz's house (it's dream anyway) playing n laughing very loudly. I got annoyed by them but didnt say much untill when a ball hit onto my frenz n i n i shouted at them. After awhile, i saw shili n boon juan crying because they are one playing with ball and hit onto us. I was super shocked about it like wth are they crying. And i saw cell-mates telling what happened to ms kau, i don't knoe why i got so angry and shouted dont come near and start question me. Grace started to walk toward me with comfort words and my alarm clock ring. -__-" I can feel that slight anger in me even when i wake up and start telling myself thank God is just a dream. oh gosh!! i think e devil is trying to do weird thing in my dream. suck man.

Anyway, i got all e photo for sat night. xiu ping 21st pre-celebration.
And today is her actual b'day. Last night, i was hoping that she will not choose dlb O. yes, We will be heading to party world tonight instead of dlb O. Hopefully tonight i can reach home at 2am, if not tml i will be super shag.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAR

hand-made scrapping for her

art piece done by queenie

yan li n me

Super long didn't see her. That night, i told her that im going to flirt wif her becos her voice is so sweet and gentle over e phone. Somemore she got a baby face too. just love ger who are just like her.

leon, ren wei, queen n mi

me and James ( pri classmate)

No wonder his face so red lo cos of martell and im holding soft drink.

im really shy when she kisses me.

and look they are different.

how come this photo only with our head?

All thank to James,trying to act professional lo

me n Jian guo

ren wei n me

lastly, the three of us.

I'm in love with this red cyber-shot T900 Digital Camera. I shall start saving money and buy this for my 21st gift to myself. or who want to be that nice person to buy for me? hehe!! Anyway is not in Singapore yet.

2009-02-23T10:04:00.000-08:00

I didn't expect to have so many people b'day on this month. I've over-spent my money again. *bomb*especially 21st b'day got two persons bernard n xiu ping. Even thou last two weeks were super busy, i think everything paid off as long as they are happy.

I had a great time with reena, yvonne and shi li in e midst of preparing video for zarra.
I take e opportunities to use shili's lappy web carm to take photo,while waiting for grace to pass e video Carm to us. Actually we took alot but not going to post all cos is way too funny. reena will know why la.

we are done with our "make up" before video-ing.

Zarra's bday on friday. Actually i don't know did we manage to surprise zarra her with e help of her brother shannon. But maybe all thank to zarra's cousin, she go n tell her that we are at her next door house. oh mind!! -.- Hope she enjoy herself

Took e last photo with her before i chao to another celebration.

I will talk about it after i received e photos.

Sat fellowship camp at GM.

plus celebrating ah na b'day too.

seriously, I don't know did we surprise her ant. cos i was suppose to tell her there's a delivery "man" which is joanna outside e gate waiting for her. And she asking me whether is it true ant and keep looking at my eyes. i so scare that my eyes betrayed la.

I was suppose to stay in e camp over night but forgotten that xiu ping pre-celebration fall on e same day too. Went over to e celebration at night and she booked e third floor at Jab1 pub. I was shocked when i saw someone there. whatever. james's frenz came over to find him. I tot my ears is playing trick on me cos i keep hearing my name n when i turn behide, it was shuxian n jeremy and chatted with them awhile.Guess wat? Eunice phua was there coming together with e big group of them. I dont know why i can always bump unto her many times outside. super "qiao" la

Queen n i was suppose to go off ard 2plus but ended we stayed throughout till 4plus in e morning . -_-

More photos will be upload after getting it frm yan li.

xavier n me

jena jing jing queenie n me

2009-02-16T21:25:00.000-08:00

I keep telling/grumbling to some of my friends that i spent half of my v day at GB. I'm not saying that is a waste of time, just that is not me at all that wld spent e time just like that. haha!! whatever. Actually i tot my plan would go smoothly, like meet up wif bh at late afternoon then at night meet ping and e rest. But i was wrong, totally pissed off with bh that i don't want to go out wif him already. Queen text me just at e right time to go out and look for ping present.

well, it has been sometime since we meet up and spending e time together in such a occasion. i feel so good to have her. haha!! Anyway i saw esther alecia grace n kai ping. i think when i saw them my reaction was quite big la. hahah!! Cos i didnt expect to see any gb ppl since i spent half my day already. After that went to eat sushi for dinner since lycia n jun tian are working there.

Everyone went home expect for mi n queen. We went down to dlb O to find ping n e rest. I saw some ex gm ppl. haha!! jason thought i've forgotten about him. lol. I was thankful that mr c came to sent me home after meeting his frenz.

2009-02-12T16:37:00.000-08:00

some random thoughts

I've this urge to re-bond my hair cos i find myself very untidy but kind of wasting my money. -.-
I think i should go n do x-ray and check what happen to me because I've gastric pain on n off since secondary school. I had my meals like 3 times a day so definitely not because of this. haha!! maybe i should ask lycia to come along with me too. lol. But it will cost us a bomb too.
I want to go for keyboard lessons and reggae dance class. oh ya, my church is having counseling training course which i'm really interested in but it's cost about 4hundreds plus. =(
I shall pray hard to God to double my money. haha!!

I want to get recipes from yk. I was really impressed by his own baking cheese cake. It's taste really nice. As many of you know that i don't really like cheese cake because it's fattening but i don't mind eating his cake. haha!! I think is quite rare for a guy to bake la. some more this is my first time that a guy give his home-made cake to me.

Anyway, HAPPY VALENTINE DAY TO EVERYONE.

2009-02-10T22:53:00.000-08:00

HAPPY B'DAY TO LYCIA

Love is patient, Love is kind.

Actually God spoke to me about this topic LOVE long ago when i was 17 yrs old. But at tt time i didn't really put into practice.

I guess loving someone that we don't like/irritate us really very hard but well, with God all things are possible. And i can say every family have its own problems.
After hearing e msg/ sharing, i start to realised how ugly i am(not in looking la) and feel really upset about myself. I know that God is starting to reveal more n more things to me including my ugliness and also not giving my portion of time to him. M i able to cope when everything comes right before me?

You are Purple Koala, who gives an impression of leading a steady life and a gentle person.
But your attitude is active and can do things that surprise those around you.
You have totally different personality inside and outside.
When the hidden characteristic suddenly comes out, you shock people.
But truly, you are natural and honest person.
You are not pretentious, so people feel safe to have relationship with you.
Nevertheless, you want to make things clear.
You would say whatever you feel necessary to comment on.
To those around you, you are an important person, who would advice them on something others would not.
You are rather cautious, and will not easily show your true feelings to others.
When your pride is badly damaged, you will get angry.
You take good care of the others, and if something happens to your friend, you will worry about it just as it happened to you.
You are big-hearted person.
You can be very calculative, but will stop trying very easily.
In every day life, you are well planned, and are sensitive to interests and bargaining.
Your health tends to be uneven, but you are talkative and energetic.
You are very active and move around constantly.
Although you have foresight, you tend to get caught by things that are under your nose, so you should be careful not to extend your activities too much.
But once married, you will eventually settle down.

until now i still feel guilty. I know everything is over but that feeling is still within me. sometimes my outer side may seem strong but deeper down I'm not. I'm not a person that show my true feeling so easily. Maybe pride is e cost of everything.

2009-02-09T14:19:00.000-08:00

I think my immune system are getting weaker n weaker. My gastric pain is coming on n off at anything time and my cough still not yet recover. super shity. I went for Drill camp on sat 2D 1N despite having all e illness. Drill camp was good after all though i was quite reluctant to go at first. I had a great time wif e girls at there too.

Sunday went to liang zai birthday party. haha!! i think liang zai will be first boy that i want to dote on. Im sure when he grow up, he will be a handsome guy but he's too skinny la. lol

Alex/ Liang Zai's B'day

I need to replenish my sleeping beauty time which i know is impossible at all. And I'm feeling sleepy and Monday blue right now. I thought my work would go smoothly today but no. All thank to US network system side. Initially, i thought it was my fault and i got panic up(totally awake by tt) and really trying my best to solve e problem. Ended up realising that it was US side problem. shit man. By e way, i've applied my ploy and i will let God decide whether is ploy a better choice for me or private is best for me.

2009-02-04T22:34:00.000-08:00

I love Bride wars this movie not becos is really super nice but is becos of e story line. Story is about friendship. Both girls actually hugged each other, cried and apologised with another.

Friend will always have quarrel, disagreement with one another etc but at e end of e day will still love that person despite everything.(i mean that is for mi) Definitely will also stand by and support with one another when needed. I guess no point continues this friendship if u knoe tt e person doesn't appreciate e things that you do for him/her.

2009-02-01T18:14:00.000-08:00

1 Feb 2009

Steamboat at ms kau's house.

Thank everyone for e preparation and also ms kau paying for e foods. haha!! i know i didn't contribute much cos i was late. When i arrived, all e foods were nicely put on e table. Indeed it was a good fellowships with one another even thou it wasn't a good day for me.

I shouldn't care so much for ppl and ended hurting another person indirectly. Thank God that He brought me through.

30 Jan 2009

Celebrate Lev's Advance B'day

(his sexy pose)

I think friday was such a good day for me. Like celebrating Lev's bday, having a good times wif colleagues. I got scare when one of e colleague requested to sit beside me and i was shaking my head so hard to say NO. Ended up everyone was laughing at him cos he got rejected.

Dinner gathering (chinese new year) plus yu sheng with GB officers & Sncos. I love this kind of feeling, everyone get together to eat n chat. But I felt so sinful cos i ate really alot.

Went down to dlb O to meet ping n e rest. All e best to clinton cos he flying to Brunei for his NS.

My cough is coming back again. SHIT!! Thank to friday night. I think i drank too much cold "drink". oh well, maybe i deserved it. arghhh!!

CNY D3

Went to thomas's house bai nian & steamboat after my work. I knew that i will lose money if i gamble and true enough i lost but thank God is not alot too. Just play for fun. Ws, thank for driving back. I met yk for tao huay near by my hse but ended up we ate ice-cream instead cos in e shop was closed. -.- sigh!! keep craving for tao huay since CNY eve.

CHINESE NEW YEAR D1 & 2

charlotte ( my cousin daughter)

Haven been seeing her for quite smt, I was shocked when i saw her walking around alone in e house. haha!! I think she super guai la. she seldom cry since she was a baby unlike my cousin keep crying n crying which is like so irritating. lol.

i think she is so adorable. I really like girl more than boy. haha!! yes, i know you guy are going to say smt.

(FAMILY PHOTOS)

Above: mum n dad

Below: me, second sis n elder sis

2009-01-29T09:54:00.000-08:00

Had a small gather meet up for steamboat at Chinatown before CNY

Thomas n Alfred

Kelvin n Wee kiat

Thomas n kelvin

I though friends(frenz that know each other for very long) should give in to one another even when e person had "PMS". I though we should "bao rong" with one another even when e person make a mistake again n again. I always believe that everything take two hands to clap. *most of the times*

BUT WHAT HAPPENED NOW???

seriously, i got so bothered by this thing that i didn't get to sleep well last night. haha!! i think you guys must be wonder, what happening to me... just to let u know I'm fine. I always have this problem in me. even thou is not my problem but i will just worry n think of it. why? cos all of them are quite close to me. I just disliked it so much when all these just happened. I want everything to be just PEACE.

2009-01-27T12:48:00.000-08:00

新年快乐

I think this year CNY is super fast till i don't enjoyed myself. Everything seems to rushed for me and i've over-spent this month on cny cloths. I'm not looking forward to anything at all even ang baos cos every year the moneys is just so little to me. CNY really bored me to death n tiring too. I didn't get to slp well for the past few days, not becos im excited of cny but some mixed feeling within me. This cny , I'm super conscious about what food i've put into my mouth cos i don't wish to grow fat. oh ya, i guess the only thing i've enjoyed was spenting time together with my family esp my two sisters becos all of us seems so busy like working, studying and serving. It's been some times we can chat together, laughing at one another etc.
Photos will be upload soon.

2009-01-20T16:36:00.000-08:00

Yesterday went to ms kau's house for CG. It was good and i was amazed for the word "assurance" came out during worship time, when i needed most. ytd was talking about Love is patient, Love is kind. seriously, i had a very big problem loving people(not all but selected). I pray that i will be more sensitive toward people esp talking to them cos our tongues is a powerful weapon that can hurt people easily. ok, at least i want to try and to be a do-er instead of listener.

Last night, i dreamt of some ppl like my sec classmates-wen shan, yuan shin ... my Ite classmates- wen hui, esmond ... It was quite surprised for me to dream of wen hui cos we are not closed at all. later part, the dream was quite sad. I dreamt that i failed my math exam and i was super sad, keep complaining to e guys like how come and all. Thank God it was just a dream. realising that i haven been studying for quite sometime that i being to missed e past.

This morning this song came to my mind when i was bathing. hahahaha!!

(In Christ Alone)

In Christ alone my hope is found;
He is my light, my strength, my song;
This cornerstone, this solid ground,
Firm through the fiercest drought and storm.
What heights of love, what depths of peace,
When fears are stilled, when strivings cease!
My comforter, my all in all—
Here in the love of Christ I stand.

In Christ alone, Who took on flesh,
Fullness of God in helpless babe!
This gift of love and righteousness,
Scorned by the ones He came to save.
Till on that cross as Jesus died,
The wrath of God was satisfied;
For ev'ry sin on Him was laid—
Here in the death of Christ I live.

There in the ground His body lay,
Light of the world by darkness slain;
Then bursting forth in glorious day,
Up from the grave He rose again!
And as He stands in victory,
Sin's curse has lost its grip on me;
For I am His and He is mine—
Bought with the precious blood of Christ.

No guilt in life, no fear in death—
This is the pow'r of Christ in me;
From life's first cry to final breath,
Jesus commands my destiny.
No pow'r of hell, no scheme of man,
Can ever pluck me from His hand;
Till He returns or calls me home—
Here in the pow'r of Christ I'll stand.

2009-01-19T18:12:00.000-08:00

I thought I've plan everything like what i want after finishing my studies and all. But I'm still so confused about it. seriously, I'm quite troubled by what path do i want to take. Even thou i keep insisting that i want to be prison officer as my career but something just not right. i was wondering is it e pay, promotion or what or worst God doesn't want me to be that. I guess I've over-think about it too. i kept telling myself that i want to hand everything to God but is still bothering me somehow. I guess i need greater assurance in my life and hope that God will qiuckly come n speak to me like in the toilet which He usually do that talking to me. hahah!!!

2008-12-31T11:03:00.000-08:00

Hurray.... today will be e last day of year 2008.
I think times passes very quickly for this year, esp when i was working.
I've learnt lots of things throughout e year of 2008. Thank God for everything esp His unfulfill-ing LOVE for me.
Even though...
1) i didnt get into poly but i believe His plan & promises for me.
2) my r/s was totally suck but i've learn alots of things thru this relationship.
3) i haven been regular attending service and letting Him down but i knoe He is faithful and always there for me when i'm needed comfort.
AND MANY MORE.....
Talking about 2009..
I think it's going to be scary. BECAUSE........ During worship on last sunday church serivce, God spoke to me. Oh man, He told me that next year journal will be much more rougher so be prepare and get ready. He said these words to me " PROCLAIM AND CLAIM IT". seriously, i really got scare but yet again FAITH this one word came to my mind. it's reminded me of Jesus walks on the water(matthew 14; 22-36). i think i really need lots of faith. aniway, i think i need a new bible. hehe!! aniway want to buy one for me? *hint hint*

Last sat- 27 Dec
It was our first official shopping together. And my legs going break after the whole day walking. Well, we had lots of funs especially taking photos. And with some unglam photos which i keep claiming to be candid shot. haha!! Alright, i will not post it here.

2008-12-24T17:59:00.000-08:00

20 Dec

Finally, i've time to go shopping. Managed to buy clothes. wohoho~
I need a rest. seriously, i've not been resting esp nov and dec. hopefully next month i can just stay at home and slack. shit!! i can't. i need to start spring cleaning my bedroom cos chinese new year is coming. hehe!! ok.. feb will be a time slacking n watch tv show at home.

I always love her so much *shy*

Class Gathering

Indeed a great time to gather again. i'm looking forward to another.

Company Christmas's Lunch & exhanging gifts

Another Company Christmas's dinner-Imperial Dinner Cruise

The food was totally sux. i think i just enjoyed e companions n the sea breeze.

But i don't mind going again wif a group my gfs thou the food really can not make it. haha!!

(priceless photo)

Merry Christmas!! Have a Blessed day =)

2008-12-21T17:44:00.000-08:00

i've so much things to say and blog, where to start? hmmm... alright, i will start from encounter camp which i went there like three weeks ago. the first time i've attended was with joanna n grace when i was 16 yrs old sec 4. Four years later, attended it again and re-encounter God. To me, this encounter was very different compare to the previous one that i went. maybe becos i've grown older and really think more. haha!! definitely, telling myself that this time round its time to take things seriously. i can't be on n off ppl and im sick about having life just like that. Having strongholds and hurts that i've in my life that i want to surrendered to Him, break it/burn it and threw it away. yes, the encounter was great. His love and embrace that till now i can still remembered it. definitely, i want to experience more of Him and best thing I know is He will never leave me nor forsake me. oh, i love everyone who was there too. Having funs and laughter's esp video we took. haha!! Hilarious... and also two embarrassing things happened in e midnight and in e toilet. *faint*

Retreat chalet was good too. i've taken one more step. it was a process of learning. but i think i screw up too. haha!!

Next was early Christmas celebration. I felt that this yr Christmas was totally different. I have never felt this way before maybe i've found another deeper meaning of Christmas. Everyone loves Christmas alot becos there will be lots of party (which i loves too) exchanging gifts and etc. But don't forget that Jesus was born on that day and im really thankful. Lots of images came to my mind when i was listening to this song WE ARE THE REASON. Image like He was suffering n carrying e cross, hanging up at e cross and ... Each time i listen to this song, just feel like tearing. its just touches my heart so so much.

WE ARE THE REASON

As little children
We would dream of Christmas morn
Of all the gifts and toys
We knew we'd find
But we never realized
A baby born one blessed night
Gave us the greatest gift of our lives

We were the reason
That He gave His life
We were the reason
That He suffered and died
To a world that was lost
He gave all He could give
To show us the reason to live

As the years went by
We learned more about gifts
The giving of ourselves
And what that means
On a dark and cloudy day
A man hung crying in the rain
All because of love, all because of love

I've finally found the reason for living
It's in giving every part of my heart to Him
In all that I do every word that I say
I'll be giving my all just for Him, for Him

He is my reason to live

2008-12-03T16:22:00.000-08:00

This month of Dec will be totally a fun & exciting month for me. i'm looking forward to all my celebration and fun with my frenz and also colleagues too. haha!! Esp my company they are having christmas dinner together plus exchanging gifts. totally looking forward to that cos will be having it at chinese Junk Boat Dinner Cruise. http://www.watertours.com.sg
Now they are thinking everyone should bring a partner together but i hope they don't. haha!! if not i will have problem with that or maybe i should start thinking which guy to be my partner for that day. LOL.

Alright scary encounter will be tml (fri). gosh!! Argh....
HELP HELP HELP

2008-12-02T16:48:00.000-08:00

I had a great time last week. Like celebrating my colleague(chris) b'day on last thur. *photo below* seriously, i enjoyed myself with them thou i was quite quiet cos shy. lol. but they are really crappy ppl and most of the time i will be like listening n laughing. thou smt i will get annoyed by one or two colleagues cos they will just come and disturb mi for nothing but still they are fun ppl to be with. haha!! Thank God for giving me such good colleagues.

GB Camp on last fri-sun.(my sec sch cca) it was awesome. I was really amazed by the way He speak to me and asking mi to seek Him instead of just picking songs from the song book. All along i've not been really praying much for the songs that i am leading for devotion, partly becos i was quite reluctant to do it or maybe wasn't totally convince abt it too. no matter what i still need to prepare my songs cos the next day will be me leading. ms kau wan me to go somewhere and seek the Lord. i actually cried while walking out and asking God.(i cried not becos i stress ya) "God, why did you choose me to be in this committee? if really then speak to me about e theme song for e devotion? what do u wan me to speak to the girls? aiya, i got headache and i can feel my head very heavy and yet i need to prepare my devotion becos of my last min work." i keep crying and asking God and the moment i settle down and prayed, God speak to me straight away. haha!! tt was really really fast.

PATIENT & LOVE
i have been learn and practicing. Teaching the girls during Dance workshop was part of training my patient and love too. seriously, want to faint or cry when i teach this ger. becos when i teach her this move moment and after a while she can forget tt move moment. so ended up i have to re-teach again n again and i have this urge to say her but i didn't. After the whole workshop, i realized that it was oso moulding me and teaching me at the same time. haha!!

THANK GOD FOR EVERYTHING!!!!

2008-11-27T00:07:00.001-08:00

A Gift Of Love

"Can I see my baby?" the happy new mother asked. When the bundle was nestled in her arms and she moved the fold of cloth to look upon his tiny face, she gasped. The doctor turned quickly and looked out the tall hospital window. The baby had been born without ears. Time proved that the baby's hearing was perfect. It was only his appearance that was marred. When he rushed home from school one day and flung himself into his mother's arms, she sighed, knowing that his life was to be a succession of heartbreaks.He blurted out the tragedy. "A boy, a big boy...called me a freak." He grew up, handsome for his misfortune. A favorite with his fellow students, he might have been class president, but for that. He developed a gift, a talent for literature and music. "But you might mingle with other young people," his mother reproved him, but felt a kindness in her heart.The boy's father had a session with the family physician. Could nothing be done? "I believe I could graft on a pair of outer ears, if they could be procured" the doctor decided. Whereupon the search began for a person who would make such a sacrifice for a young man. Two years went by. Then, "You are going to the hospital, son. Mother and I have someone who will donate the ears you need. But it's a secret" said the father. The operation was a brilliant success, and a new person emerged. His talents blossomed into genius, and school and college became a series of triumphs. Later he married and entered the diplomatic service. "But I must know!" He urged his father. "Who gave so much for me? I could never do enough for him.""I do not believe you could," said the father, "but the agreement was that you are not to know...not yet." The years kept their profound secret, but the day did come . . . one of the darkest days that ever pass through a son. He stood with his father over his mother's casket. Slowly, tenderly, the father stretched forth a hand and raised the thick, reddish-brown hair to reveal . . . that the mother had no outer ears."Mother said she was glad she never let her hair be cut," he whispered gently, "and nobody ever thought mother less beautiful, did they"? Real beauty lies not in the physical appearance, but in the heart. Real treasure lies not in what that can be seen, but what that cannot be seen. Real love lies not in what is done and known, but in what that is done but not known.

2008-11-23T21:44:00.000-08:00

i think it's time for me to put words into action once again. I need to be very sure about myself, the things that i am doing n the feeling that i have. yes!! i need to take the step of faith and moving out of my comfort zone once again. hanging around wasn't a good thing for me and i know i need a push somehow. I have been very careful with every step that I've take and the decision that i make. i don't wish to be in a situation that is in between or making any impulsive decision and ended up i can't do or not willingly to do. For the past, i've experienced it again n again and now i don't wish to let history repeat itself again. so sick about it. i think the camp will be my first Big step to move n follow by this scary encounter camp that i am going next wk. but then i know this is also going to be very exciting because i wan to see how much HE is going to reveal to me. sound abit funny la.

i was quite dishearten over some issue that i've heard and seem. i don't know why is it that my heart was crying over it and will feel sad for it too. maybe i take it too closely to my heart or maybe i can actually feel how they feel over it.

2008-11-18T16:48:00.000-08:00

super sad now. i think i pressed wrongly with this two letter "FF" on youtube and guess wat they banned me from using it now. argh!! how??? how??? can anyone help me? can i request them to unban me but HOW? not purposely doing that and i was shocked to see that small msg pop out. sigh!! i want to watch America's Next Top Model cycle 11 ep 12 but now....
i'm not use to other website plus mostly are in chinese. aiya!!! i don't care i want back my youtube. oh, did i say is my office pc got banned from youtube? haha!! luckily is not my home pc. but still HELP mi HELP mi???

2008-11-17T09:22:00.000-08:00

I had a great time this year instead a memorable b'day.

i was blind-folded by xin zhi. she said she wan to give mi a surpise.

at wen shan's car. ws wan to sell mi away. LOL

xin zhi, me, Queenie n xiu ping (I LOVE THIS PHOTO)

at east coast

damn les la

i always enjoys their companys

*hugs*

Many BIG thanks i want to say....

THANK for all the wishing I've recieved...
some msg were really veri cute like reena n yong kiat...
i was quite suprised by some msg, didnt expect them to msg me cos we wasn't that close. and its really so sweet for them to do so.
still thankful that some of my frenz (like joanna..) whom i didnt contact for quite smt still remembered despite everythings.

THANK YOU melissa for treating me saka for lunch on thur.

A BIG THANK YOU to all my colleagues...
Holding a mini-celebration for me and making the effort.

Not forgetting b'day gifts and nice chocolate cake.

THANK YOU all my lovely gfs and not forgetting ws for celebrating with me on Friday. (i enjoyed myself)

~ thank xz for making the effort to plan and choose such nice place to eat and to celebrate. ( the heart shape that you make fill with sparkler was really very nice and the cake was super nice too.)

~ thank ws for celebrating and fetching us.

~ thank xiu ping and queenie for making urself so high during singing session. esp queenie ur expression so funny and ping i had a great time toking to you at the beach while they prepare another surpise for me.

~ thank Mr C for coming to fetch us to our singing session. i was somehow quite "touched" by your msg.

THANK YOU EVERYONE for celebrating with me and cook all the delicious FOODS on sat.

~ thank shi li's mother for cooking the pineapple rice and a esp egg just for me.

~ thank lycia for steaming egg "cake" (SUPER) together with 6 eggs. I LOVE IT.

~ thank elieen for lending us your place with no one in.

~ thank Grace for planning the celebration for me. *Shy shy*

~ thank alciea for holding me when i was blind-folded. *sweet sweet*

~ thank sock teng, esther, kai ping, shi li, zarra n ah chew for making me laugh and so entertaining by doing all e retarded stuff esp esther... couldn't cross your legs.

I LOVE EACH N EVERYONE COMPANY.

2008-11-12T16:29:00.000-08:00

can someone come and help me with this date and time stuff. today 13 nov yet the blog put 12 nov. ok!! whatever. i think my "aunty" is coming to visit me soon and tt's y i always feel so piss off over small little things. don't ask y cos i myself oso don't know and i am trying hard not to feel so easily piss off. But yet there was this retarded person msn me ytd and wish me Happy Advance Birthday. guess who is it? that fucking esmond.

esmond: hi

me: hello

esmond: Happy Advance B'day

me: thank

esmond: how are you?

me: good

me: how come you can book out early?

after a while....

esmond: ?

me: just now i ask you a question

esmond: i forgotten what you said

me: oh mind!! m i toking to a retarded or wat

esmond: -_-

me: its true wat. just less than 10 mins you can forgot wat i've ask you.

me: all you know is eat and slp

me: definitely not using ur brain to think now.

esmond: chat wif you later.

obviously, he know that i am going to scold him like shit, tt's y he faster offline. and i wanted to ask him to go n die cos for him to live in this earth is really wasting re-sources. but still i didn't. yes, there's nothing wrong wishing me but he is such pest. whenever he come n tok to me, i will feel upset or angry.be it calling texting or msn.

In the end, i text saying that i appreciate his wishing but i hope that this week he don't come n disturb me and also dun even bother to text mi too. cos i don't wan him to come n spoil my wonderful days. he is a spoiler la

At that point of time, i was super pissed off with him. just nice mr C came and tok to me on msn. i was like complaining to him abt e conversation i had with that fucking retarded asshole. whatever la

tml will be my b'day. i wasn't very excited about it becos i was thinking about my 21st b'day and how excited i am. thinking where can i held and who m i suppose to invite and blah blah.

2008-11-05T18:28:00.000-08:00

1 NOV CELEBRATED SHUSHI's ADVANCE BIRTHDAY.

A tiring day.

me, shushi n michelle

pretty n mi
oh ya!! thank for fetching me there(:

Shushi n her family

Group photo

was suppose to go home but they want to go somewhere else.

so we went to e-hub. well, it's hard to find time with them esp kelvin

finally, got photo with him. LONG TIME FRENZ

since pri 1 uh ?

my hao "jie mei"

What a retard position

2008-11-02T09:58:00.000-08:00

Friday was Halloween Night. Meet up with my lovely girls. oh man, i can said that night i am such a disgraced and letdown. This is my first time and also will be my last time. I hope history will not happened again. Blue-black here and there on my body and head. That was crazy and havoc night.Whenever i recall back, i just feel like bang-ing my head on the wall. I don't know wat the heck that i called my frenz in e middle of e night and is only one time but three times. just wonder how come i wld choose him cos we wasn't really that close. or maybe we have been chatting with each other lately. luckily he wasn't sleeping if not double guilty ok!! i feel i'm not prepare in any of the upcoming "events".

2008-10-27T14:54:00.000-07:00

Recently, borrow a book tittle "Attitude is Eveything". 10 Life changing Steps to turning Attitude into Action. Nice book to read i would say. one of the chapter was ATTITUDE IS A CHOICE, building your Attitude from the Inside out.

"For true happiness, its best to look within yourself rather than rely on other or the world around you. The sad but true fact is that it's difficult to be happy if you rely on outside sources. The root of happiness is Joy, and Joy lives within you. It's not influenced by external events."

It's really a choice and there are always two choices. You can choose to be in a good mood, or you can choose to be in a bad mood.

2008-10-23T15:36:00.000-07:00

The House

Here is the analysis:
Your house tells the world that you ought to be a leader. You are good at making friends and when the joyful moment arrives, you make the most out of it.

You are shy and reserved. If you've drawn a cross on each of windows, you always want to live alone. Once you have a problem, you need a friend with you. Your life is always full of changes.

You will avoid being alone and seek the company of others whenever possible. You love excitement and create it wherever you go. You always have plans on your mind. This might cause a lot of stress if things don't go the way you expect. You see the world as it is, not as you believe it should be.

You added a flower into your drawing. The flower signifies that you long for love. It also safe to say that others don't see you as a flirt. You are self-confident and happy with your life.

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test48.aspx

I disliked making decision when im not rational enough, not using my brain to think before i act it. always like to follow my feeling. which was totally a big mistake.

2008-10-20T11:32:00.000-07:00

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education
Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

hmmm, i think is really kind of true to me ya. Like i am down-to-earth and a practical person. The type of bf/gf is like so true and others too. I shall not say it all out. haha

2008-10-07T09:53:00.000-07:00

There are lots of things came to my mind as i do my self-reflection. Like my relationship and my life. Well, last time i disliked doing self-reflection cos i don't really want to or should i say i don't wish to think alot or maybe also running from the fact. But i guess as times goes by, doing self-reflection actually make you grow and learn. For the past few weeks, i was really depressed and suppressing my feeling esp on this area of r/s.It's really a BIG BLOW to me. I remember that night i was super duper sad and keep on crying. My mood swing all the way to the lowest ground and didn't have any appetite for dinner. All I want is to be inside my world without anyone disturbing and even thought of wishing in a coma state. haha!! sound emo ya. At the point of time, i keep on blaming myself and thinking how useless i was. A totally silly girl i would say and even daniel saying that too. It make me feel so upset. But now i'm kind of like feeling better each day. Everyday i've to keep telling myself that he's gone and we are no longer together anymore. I've struggled so hard whether to share with ms kau ant then questioning myself why m i struggling to share? perphaps i was rather comfortable staying in my circle zone not knowing that at all. But that was not what i want in the first place, all along i have been telling myself to move on with my life but yet i wasn't and i was feeling totally so emotional. I've came to realised that my emotional was so overwhelming each time that it's actually blinded my rational and behaving like a crazy fellow. Well, i hope i will continues stay in a "better" state. To apply to r/s: Guys are like a light bulb, once you switch off which mean no light at all while girls are like a iron once you switch off, its still hot and take times to cool down. Likewise in r/s guys (not all guys but majority) shut off everything once the r/s end and will not be bother to think about it anymore.

God does not promise you a life free from pain and suffering just because you believe in Him. If those who believed in God never experienced hurt other people would see God only as a magician who takes away pain. The difference is that you have a relationship with God, who helps, comforts you, and sometimes even miraculously heals your hurts. But most important, you have a God who will take away all of your hurts when you arrive in heaven. Whatever pain you are experiencing is temporary. One day it will end, perhaps here on earth but certainly in eternity.

I've been thinking alot lately, about what is my values in life and my purpose. Well, i'm kind of know what is my values in life. Life without values is just like a shell without a body. I'm seeing people who lives their days without any purpose or values at all and not knowing what do they want. People would say my purpose is to earn so much money as possible but is that really a purpose in life that we are living for? isn't that just a goal or aim? Guess i'm still in the process of re-thinking again n again.

YES!! FINALLY BELOVED QUEENIE SENT ME E PHOTOS WE TOOK DURING HER B'DAY AT ATSON.

2008-10-05T18:42:00.000-07:00

27 SEPT 2008

sorry, is not that i'm lazy to post but just that im waiting for photos from shushi. Alright. I went swimming together with two persons (cannt name out e names. haha!! u know who you are ya) in e afternoon before heading to eliz's bbq. I just swim 12 laps only and i though that i would accomplish my 20 laps. ok. will try harder the next time. well, the bbq went smoothly. I get to see my sec class-mates again. This time round we really chatted alot and saying how much we missed our sec sch life. *girls talk* yes, they missed sec sch so much that they even though of climbing in and go back to our classroom but still we didn't because shushi wearing skirt.

Elizabeth 20th B'day @ SIMS VILLE

not eliza. her sister candice. im glad to see her again.

mi, xin zhi n yue hua

xz n mi not ready to take la

ugly face

xz damn funni lo

trying to make myself crying

too shy.

denise mi n shushi

As we talk back about our past in sec, we realised that we haven been taking photos together

for very long times.The three of us used to take lots of photos during our days in sec sch life and yes now is e chances again

i'm just trying to let u c how gold fish mouth look like and look what's wrong wif denise wan to fight is it? lol

Biryhday girl in black colour

our childhood :)

we decided to go gym for some exercise. so random

denise me xin zhi shushi eliz n yue hua

I love the ONE WAY signboard

lastly, this crazy Denise trying to act dead. *fainting*

2008-09-29T01:13:00.000-07:00

LATE LATE POST ON 19 SEPT
Celebrate Rui Xiang & Yvonne's B'day cum Lantern Festival (after 1 wk ._.)
Awesome day.

ok! i know is very painful. bear with it.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!

rui xiang smile so cheeky, must be wishing for a dancer bf.

yvonne can't wait to blow away e candle. haha!!

A group photo *smile*

let's do a funni face. haha!! look at grace (red shirt) hehe

me and yvonne :)

me, rx & grace *loves*

prepare candles and sparklers

cheerful yvonne

oh mind!! look at reena. haha

they are trying to act 007. lol

zarra n me. both of us are scare of e spark

look at reena again. haha!! not enough times for her

climb up.

alecia n reena trying to act fierce esp alecia la

rx can't stand the smell of e smoke. *smelly*

everyone let's dance together.

me& shi li

we decided to sit down and rest, meanwhile we play childhood games.

we need to pose a ugly face and freeze. Look below

rx play cheat. lol

kai ping look so funni.

ok. im acting retard again. i know is damn ugly.

Grace fav pose. hahah

eileen

reena act cute. hahahaha. but i still love her.

2008-09-25T09:15:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday to QUEEN!!!

Sorry for late post =)ok! we celebrated queenie b'day on last friday even thou her actually day was thursday.We had dinner at ASTON followed by ktv pub. hmmm, a great time to spent with one another but my beauty slp not enough cos i reached home was about 4.30 in e morning and i've to go for meeting at 9am. oh yes!! Actually,i wanted to gather all e photos before i post it but well, some of you can't wait to know. im still waiting for queen to send her first part when we are at Aston. argh!! so slow and inefficient but i still love her. haha. I need to be more patient too.

queen and jingjing

xiu ping ang jingjing

queen n ping

its me and jingjing

jingjing was e tallest among us, so we want

her to be shorter than us. *evil laugh*

haha!! look at queen

always want to kiss ppl

ok! a retared look trying not to smile.

acting as if we are wearing a spec la

presenting him( older than us) LOL

acting cute but we konw we are "cute"

we are all girly person expect him(trying to be like us)

a hug to another

i know this photo veri funni esp queen. a sunny glasses for her

i've edited tis photo cos she got a sleepy eyes.

we want to shoot her but she still so happy.

A real group photo was taken

Currently, mentally tired. I'm trying my best to crawl out of that stupid dark hole but it's seem to be a little bit difficult. It's really a torture and unbearable to me. I just need to clear things up. I haven been sleep well for the two days, kept dreaming about then same things. Alright!! Did i mention how excited i am for next monday hip hope class. YEAH!! I CAN'T WAIT TO LEARN AND DANCE AGAIN :)

2008-09-17T14:55:00.000-07:00

HAPPY "BIRD" DAY TO AH XIANG!!!

Yesterday was her b'day. A real last min celebration and dinner together at mac.

(All with ahlibaba)

she refused to let me kiss her.

reena n mi

i'm trying to act slim

bloated version

reena n shili

i like tis photo. Alecia n reena

Alecia n me

Below are all the facial expression that we are

trying to shit out. lol *pardon us*

i know i look retarded

look at her. shitting = sleeping.

ok!! finally is out. LOL

don't know what is she laughing about

My colleague show a vcd to angelina and me on how people slaughter the pig. oh man is damn grossed. I feel like vomiting now cos i just finished my lunch. *faint*

2008-09-15T14:43:00.000-07:00

I've spent my last friday n weekends wisely. I guess. Having meetings, training, self-reflection, church serivce, spenting time with one another and meeting up with frenz was good. At least, i do not have the time to think about others stuff. I'm glad to meet up with Mr. C on friday after my supper with grace and shili and michelle on sunday. Well, i just want to thank him for driving me home and to listening to my story. seriously, we haven been catching up with one another and ended up, we spent about 2hrs inside the car just to chat. haha!! And finally, a one on one catch up with michelle. Really a real catch, talking lots of things esp on relationship and our past in primary school memories. real funny saying how anti christ i was during pri sch times.

After all, there wasn't any conclusion at all about my stuffs. Even when i told Mr.C and michelle about it, its still the same things. I can only take all these as a advice to me. Ultimately, the decision still rely on me.

2008-09-11T14:52:00.000-07:00

I want to say a BIG thank you to my friends for being there. XIN ZHI thank for being there and trying to entertain me so that i wun haf the time to think about others stuff. I can see that you are making effort calling at night to acc me and making sure everything is fine even thou you're tired after your retard work. haha!! Both of us are so alike in many things. Alots of love to you my dear. Seriously, i appreciate it every small little things be it msg or tag by all beloved frenz, i can feel it. thank! Well, i'm back to myself after two days of emo-ing. Happy and smiling kelly. Everything is over and i felt so much lighter now. Yes, my previous post was damn emo. It wasn't me at all and i didn't know i was such a person. Alright!! Facing e fact that i was a emotional person. I guess im not calm enough to handle such situation. Everything has a lesson to learn, definitely i will be more wiser and smarter. Aside from all these, HAPPY OCCASION. We had a advance b'day celebration for my two colleagues(Jay and Eng Guan).We went over to boat quay to have some thai food. Everything was good, the food the people etc. The lunch was awesome. I had a great time with them. Its such a pity, Levent and Marianne went off half way thru the lunch.

they are so funni, trying to act gay.

2008-09-08T16:30:00.000-07:00

The feeling was so overwhelming right now that my brain is not functioning. serious. I can feel my whole body very weak now. My heart is beating so fast and i couldn't catch my breathe too. I'm not trying to sound exaggerate nor kidding. I couldn't believed that the feeling came back so strongly again after two months. My heart is aching and bleeding. He was the only one that make me couldn't control my emotional. I couldn't accpect the fact that he is flirting (or should i say in a relationship)with other girl right now thou we have parted for like 3 months ago. But i didn't expect it to be so so fast. Really fast. All i can remember was that he told me that he's scare of girl after the relationship we had in e past. ok. BULLSHIT. He is trying to make feel guilty isn't it? Fuck. I'm not trying to be selfish or wat but i guess i wasn't prepare at all. I thought all these should be happened after his NS but i was wrong. Tears started to roll down without knowing it when i saw the website which is tagged(smt like friendster). What's worst, is that i couldn't cry out loud cos im working. keep on holding back my tears. We parted not because we find that we are not suitable for each other. The fact is he did something wrong which is so serious that cannot be undone. I've no choice but to break up. I always got agitated so easily by the action and words he do and said. I told myself to ignore it but i can't. ok! maybe he too despo for gers. Even young girls also want to flirt. wth!! Seriously, i feel like give myself one tigh slap. really!! I always thought that im strong but i wasn't at all.

I guess it's time for me to let go of everything and pick myself up again. CAN I?? I didn't know that i've reacted it so strongly again. Aright!! I shall stop brooding over all these.

2008-09-06T11:48:00.000-07:00

It was great meeting up with my gf on friday night after my work, even thou michelle n i were not feeling well on that day. oh, both of them are my pri sch-mates n we went throu thick n thin. There are times when we disliked each other etc. But im glad we are still together despite of everything. Before we head for our dinner, they decided to go for some shopping but i wasn't in a mood for shopping but they insist so no choice. And ended up i bought a top from forever 21. haha!! Well, we had our dinner at HK cafe cine. really a great time catching up with one another cos its been ages i last seem them esp Eunice. We had this conversation about our future partner. damn funni. Zhen(eunice) n her bf were together for 5 yrs already so chelle n i were saying tt they can get marry. then how abt us? thou chelle got a bf now. but we keep saying that wat if both of us do not have a bf by the age of 30. oh mind!! i don't even dare to think of that. seriously. We keep saying that maybe we can try to go ALL the match-making agencies and register our name there. haha!! ok. God plz bless us. alright! It was just a joke anyway.

eunice mi michelle

michelle's food

Eunice's hor fun

same as zhen but mine is dry hor fun

we give ugly face.

zhen look damn funni

she got a shock when i wan to help
to dig her nose. haha

i dont wan to take a proper photo le

even tis photo.. im trying to be funni

michelle said: Let's take a photo w a wide smile
as if we got 1 million dollar.

i feel so blessed.

michelle n i watched Forgetting Sarah Marshall at cin after zhen went off to meet her bf. It was
hilarious. The lead actor called peter if im not wrong showing off his penis at the start of the movie.Is a m18 comedy show. ok! I love comedy so so much. I love to laugh like nobody business. oh ya! I saw jasmine yen outside cine after movie. haha!! she said she couldn't recognise me at all. Is it a good thing or a bad thing? i wonder. i guess is a "new" me and most of ppl said that my hair doesn't suit me. well, it's ok. at least i dare to tried=)

For so many days, I've been waiting for ur reply mail. It was dishearted everytime i checked my mail when there's no new from you.

2008-09-03T11:40:00.000-07:00

Xin zhi and I went for a hair cut together on tue after our work. I didn't know what kind of hair -style should i cut. So i told him just cut a hair-style that suit and doesn't require me to do some styling which i dislike it. Ended up my hair look like mushroom now or maybe i should say im looking like as if im wearing a helmet. freaking funny la. hair-dresser keep assure me that it's look nice on me. -_- Maybe i am not use to it. I don't know. xz said nice when she look longer. sigh!! Well, i didn't really regret for the hair cut that i had cos my hair will grow, so not to worry so much. Kc and his friend coming to meet us for dinner. We waited for like half an hr la. While waiting for them, we went to mac to rest and took some photo too. haha!! I saw rui jing at mac too. She said my hair look nicer than e previous one. damn happy.

Most of my colleague were saying that my hair look cute. ok!! I guess they just want to console me cos i give a sad face. pretending only. haha!!! another colleague thought she went in to the wrong office cos she saw me near the door when i was about to go out too. wth. haha!!

2008-08-31T19:32:00.000-07:00

I got lots of things in my mind about last fri, sat n sun. Let's start with friday. Having Annual Camp Meeting at Ms kau's hse after my work. Lots of sharing. It's going to be interesting for next yr. Make me feel so excited for next yr and also camp too. After hearing all e sharing, deep down in my heart i want to change for a better but ... sigh!! I'm not ready. Question came to my mind: How ready do you want? I also have another tots like actually juz believed n trust that God will juz use you. aiya!! sian. so many things to think about. haha!! but i choose not to think so much. veri tired. ok!! I'm inside Devotion committee with Esther. Draw lots also can draw untill devotion which i really don't want it in e first place. It's God affirmation to me to be in that committee. After the meeting, went to meet wen shan n xin zhi to catch midnight movie 4bia. damn stupid la. no storyline at all. The sound effect scare ppl. haha!!

I bought my mp3 at comex during sat and managed to get it @$99. Thank kinleong for accompany me. Cos i didnt know that comex end on sunday so it was a last min thing to ask him out. I chosen the right person cos he studies IT course. Everytime was just nice. Cityhall was jam when i reaches there. Disliked it so much. i saw reena too. luckily i didnt called the wrong person cos i was wandering whether is it you ant. hhaha!!

I was so tired over the past two days that i was late for my congre meeting on sun. Worst is that i found that i forgotten to bring my hp n rx's leggings when i've already board the bus to parkway. wat a day!! But congre meeting, i can said is not bad la. TRANSFORMATION. Certain things i will keep it to myself. self-reflection!!!!

2008-08-29T18:04:00.000-07:00

A post on 28 Aug'08. I know abit late for the post. I want to remember this fun day yet a heartache pain for me too. Before tis post i was mentioning that how excited to meet my darling xin zhi. Yeah!! I went over to her house after my work together with wee teck. We reached her hse early, so we decided to go to the sky-garden to sit n chat. haha!! After a while, xz called us to go up to her hse. At first, i thought that hui qin will be coming over too. But she didn't cos it was too last min fo her. Well, I enjoyed myself there, even thou there were only the three of us chatting n talking rubbish. haha!! Not only that we also do mui-chee(spelling check) to eat too. I think xz n i always so self-high& self-entertain but we enjoyed it alot cos we do retarded stuff together and laughing at each other. But wee teck can't be bother with us becos he was so engrossed to the channel 8 show -_-' nvm. We also celebrated week teck belated Birthday which was like 5 days ago. haha!! Actually we didn't plan to celebrate for him but it was juz nice that i bought chocolate bar =) haha!! the funnies thing is xz n i sang a B'day song which was really -_-||| haha!!
OH YA!!! I lost my mp3 at library while waiting for wee teck and xin zhi. sigh!! How careless m i? I'm going waste my money again to buy but juz nice now is IT fair. That night i couldn't slp well not only due to e lost of my mp3 and also becos of shane. Argh!! smt i realli disliked it so much. I believed that most of the problems it's always take two hands to clap. Before that we had a small quarrel again. wth!! He said that i throw my temper at him which he think he doesn't deserved it becos you always that that you are right but the fact that its not. It's really make me feel sad. But im not going to think so much. Just let it be. haha!! tt's me =)

(taken at sky- garden)

dun know wth she want from me

i think he want to cut himself. lol.

2008-08-27T20:19:00.000-07:00

I JUZ REALISED SOMETHING. MY POST DATE N TIMING ARE TOTALLY WRONG. SHILI CAN YOU HELP ME WIF THIS THINGS COS I KNOW IM RETARDED IN THIS AREA. HAHA!! PEOPLE WILL THINK THAT IM INSANE BLOGGING IN E MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT OR WHATEVER SHIT. BUT THE FACT IS NOT. OK!! HELP MI OK. I WAN TO MAKE EVERYTHING RIGHT. =)

2008-08-27T18:56:00.000-07:00

Feel abit depressed tis morning juz because of the stupid Ploy admission. Couple days ago, a few of my friends were asking me about whether did i apply for the oct intake and i said no because of my work contact. This morning, rui xiang msg me whether did i try applying. she added saying that two of her friends got into TP ploy. OH MIND!! what the heck. i wasted another half a yr. sigh!! Before applying job, i should have tot of the duration. =( The worst things is quite a number of my friends told me that oct intake is much more harder to go in than the april intake. So i sort of give up the idea of applying somemore i don't even bother about it. Look wat i have done. I feel like banging my head to the wall. Forget it. It's over. haha!! im mad now. I can't wait for tml and my weekends. NO GB ON SAT. okay!! im meeting xin zhi later. Hurray! It's like finally can see her again. haha!! Actually i was supposed to meet shane for dinner & movie but he got test today which is at night cos he's taking part-time degree. So i canceled it off.

2008-08-25T17:43:00.000-07:00

Good morning!! haha!! i know im crazy. Well, inside the office there isn't much things for me to do and all i can use is this stupid computer. okay!! I didn't sleep well due to smt happened. Last night, i had a convensation with shane on the phone. We chatted for quite long. I though it was supposed to be happy chatting but ended it's not. I'm acutely sorry for what i've said and yes the words that i said is hurting. But i didn't know its hurts you to a point that you actually said somethings that made me feel so upset till i cried. I guess i was impulsive and the whole night i felt so guilty even untill now. ok!! Let the past be e past. No point thinking =) OH YA!! This friday night got meeting at ms kau's house. Sigh!! Heard from queenine that they are going to timbre. Argh!! I want to go too. Maybe i should go and find them after the meeting anyway they won't be going home so earlier but it's at City Hall and not only that still have about 5-10mins distance walk. Sian. -_-Wondering who will be the kind soul to come and fetch me to there. hahaha!! im thinking too much la

2008-08-25T00:00:00.000-07:00

Seriously, i damn bored now. Everyday my office hours routine are reading Strait Time, chatting on msn, watching youtube show so can you imagine is like freaking sian. Of cos i got do my job but nothing much to do at all. I know i shoudn't complain because im blessed with this job which doesn't require me to do this n that but... okey!! whatever. I think i should really consider part-time study so i can study at my workplace which they actually ask/allow me to do so and at the same time i can earm money too. haha!! well, i can't wait for my darlings/frenz to finish their exam so i can go out and have fun with them. esp darling xin zhi. she is mugging like shit. no matter what im going to meet up with her and spent times together. Even thou i met her last friday for lunch. She came to find me after her paper. haha!! so sweet of her but still not enough. Alright!! i think ppl will think that i'm a les la. haha!!

2008-08-23T03:13:00.000-07:00

oh yes! i've been thinking for quite sometime whether to create a blog for myself ant and finally my blog is done. Actually, didn't though of creating in e first but shili want to know me more and ask me to create a blog and so i did. I think i'm quite retarded in doing all these things and has been asking her about these and that. haha!! OH YA!! she keep laughing at me because of that. okay!! Alright enough of all these anyway thank for helping=)
Well, was talking with ms kau this morning and she said something which reassured me once again. she though that i wouldn't be coming to serve GB this yr due to something happened to me but to her surprised, i still continuous to serve and preserve on. YES!! i serve a God who is faithful and i saw God faithfulness. REALLY!! God has given me such a good job which is high pay job. Before that, i really prayed very hard to ask God for a job that is only on weekdays (most of the job i saw is wkdays+sat) and i told him i will hand everything into his hand. And he answered my prayed for a job that is only on weekdays not only that but also good pay too which i didn't expect in e first place. Everyone was saying that im so lucky to have such a good job and all but in my heart i know that God is one that plan everything for me. I am very thankful for what i have now.